Sunday 12.30PM: As I’m writing this (first draft on paper) I’m standing on set: in the rain, freezing my butt off. Ever since I was 12 I’ve wanted to be able to say that. The being on set part, freezing your ass off is a daily thing here in Holland. I dreamt that I would have to miss class and that my teacher would say to my classmates that I wasn’t present because I was on set. It’s not the first time I’m on set though. But it is the first time I’m on set for a TV program. Uh-huh, I scored my first TV role! And boy, it all went fast. Just as I was starting to think “Gee I need an audition soon, I’m getting impatient” my obnoxious, too-loud ringtone brightened everyone’s day at the office with a heart attack. It was an audition call, would I like to audition for a TV role? But of course I wanted that! The next day I was on an audition, the morning after I got the callback, the day after I dyed my hair for the role and the day after that here I am: the first day of shooting.
I haven’t done any scenes yet, so that’s why right now I finally have some time to write (literally! not the typing type). You see, yesterday I had a premiere! The premiere of my first real professional short. It was so magical to see my name appear on that silver screen amongst the names of some very big actors in Holland. One name on the screen was especially touching. The name of a great actor that committed suicide earlier this month. I was very excited to be in this movie with him, but unfortunately we didn’t share any scenes. So then I was very excited to meet him at the premiere, but unfortunately that didn’t happen either. There’s really nothing you can say. I didn’t know him personally, but it still touches you. You try to imagine what it must be like for the family and it’s incomprehensible. I think this short is a nice last movie for the actor though, he’s super in it. And it’s certainly a great first one for the starting actress that I am. Well… I’m stopping now so I can prepare for my scenes. Wish me luck!
Sunday 06.02PM: So by now about 5 to 6 hours have passed and I have filmed one scene, drank one mini coke and ate 2 sandwiches. This may be my first professional production, but I’ve had far better catering, haha! The scene I did went well, I think. I got arrested and (wo)manhandled by two real cops, so I can check that off my to-experience-list. Isn’t that the reason why we love acting? So we can experience things we normally would never experience? It is a reason for me for sure! Still, I can’t wait to go home. Due to a Halloween party that had been on the schedule for forever I only slept for about 4 hours… And no matter how much I love acting, standing outside in the cold with nowhere to sit is never fun. But as I’m writing this I’m finally nice and comfy inside, 4 scenes to go!
Sunday 10.57PM: So, I just got home. It’s been a long day. I also learned a very valuable lesson: you have to be a businesswoman/negotiator if you want to be an actress. In the US everyone has an agent or manager to take care of that part. But in Holland there are no real agents, and actors only get managers once they’re already famous. And contracts? Reading them usually doesn’t make things any more clear to me! My advice is: no matter how bad you want a part, review every contract and don’t be too afraid to ask for things. You have rights and if they want you, they’ll have no choice but to take them into account. It was my first experience in negotiating and such and I found it quite a hard thing to do. It just doesn’t come naturally to me. I think I’m going to give my previous management a call and hope they can give me some advice. And no, I wasn’t famous, even though I had a manager. I just asked them to help me with starting off an acting career and they were kind enough to do it. And end it after a year because I didn’t get enough work. Everything’s allright though, this is a tough business and it’s not all magical times and LA sun (more on that soon!). It’s working hard, getting dissappointed and learning. But the heights are worth all the lows!
To close it off with something nice: the local Amsterdam news station apparently made an item about the premiere of the short I just wrote about, for obvious reasons. And it showed clips of the scenes I am in. Pretty cool! Even cooler is that one of my best friends works at that news station and that it had nothing to do with that!
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